I was a white night all because of moral things that family and society forced me to believe. I was always wondering why hot girls are with jerks while I'm the one that respect them. I treat girls like I'm interested in their personality, give too much validation to them in exchange for nothing. I thought that any sexual interaction even touching her is unmoral because of religious society I live in. I thought that if I show more interest in girls personality traits than sexual attractiveness girls will love me! I did this but it didn't work. I was thought its because of commitment and marriage will solve this -hopefully I didn't try this!!:) .

Two years ago I found an strange thing!! Whenever I look to a girl and thinking about fucking her, she become interested to me! I didn't have any respect for her, she was just an slut for me, but it seems that she loves it! I tried this for some other girls and even older women, and as you guess, they all liked this!!

I was confused, I didn't know which one is right, even I ask a female opinion about dating but it wasn't useful. Until I find PUAs and finally TRP and manosphere blogs. After that I became aware about truth every thing become clear. I left behind all mental barriers and finally I reached to the point that I kissed a girl and touch her body, she was just a friend before.