Intro: I’ve transferred to a large party school last year, but I’ve been in monk mode ever since. At the beginning of my junior year, I went to an Asian frat party and was consequently rejected by three girls in a row. I felt ashamed and down about myself and went back to my dorm to sleep off my buzz. After this, I went over the situation countless times to find out I did not know what I did wrong: I tried to be funny, to connect with them but after a while the girls would run off and I never knew why.
Appearances: I knew that looks mattered but I never knew that it would be so important while picking up girls. I was a 5’ 10’’ Asian dude at 190 lbs so I was a bit chubby and had love handles only a teapot could love. I also never had braces so my front teeth protrude out, but my smile is straight in pictures. When I talk to people, they always look at my teeth and then cover their own, especially girls that I was trying to hit on. Therefore, I had low self esteem about my teeth.
I was getting depressed about leaving all of my friends in St. Louis, so I started to get into reddit more and more. In my first two years at my other school, I was only interested in one Korean girl who I had a relationship with but got super lazy and fat due to my constant supply of pussy. I had a severe case of one-itis and thought that she was my unicorn. I was always trying to get her approval, but she eventually dumped me because of my perceived beta-ness. Her shit-tests worked and I responded in the worst way possible. Hindsight is 20/20.
I grew up as a pastor’s son and was taught to be extremely nice and complacent to everyone. Church did teach me empathy, but failed to teach me about the real fucking world. Jesus is fucking awesome, but he did not have to deal with today’s bitches.
Appearances: Now I know that appearances do matter. I know my teeth weren’t fixed by braces and that everyone is a fucking bracist. When I speak and don’t reveal my own teeth but only when I’m smiling or laughing. Otherwise, I never give validation to anyone else. I dress appropriately and don’t give a shit. I stand up straight and look people in the eye when I’m approaching them. Our school has buses and now I find myself sitting straighter than anyone else. I don’t look down at my iphone to avoid looking at people. I give people the wild wolf look- with narrowed eyes which is pretty easy for me. I leave a 5 o’ clock shadow on my face to let people know I can cut their shit with my semi beard.
I am a 21 year old man, and I deserve some goddamn respect. Who else can I respect if I can’t respect myself. I now shoot hoops and run in the morning as well as lift. I am now 168 lbs with decent musculature. I now see more and more girls glance at me since I am taller than the average Asian dude and is actually not skinny or underweight.
Mindset: No one cares about me except my parents and sister. There are so many attractive females walking around campus, yet all of them ride the CC. Even my roommate, who is a 6’ 3’’ lifting junkie cannot get a single lay. These girls know that there is always someone better than me, faster than me, smarter than me, better looking than me- and so they won’t even give me the time of day. I now know that there is nothing else I want more in life is to become a dentist- make 500k a year, drive a fucking Mercedes, and own a big house with bitches.
I am now in monk mode- I could care less about anyone else. Why would I care about what a 120 lb girl thinks or does? I could fucking bodyslam her and incapacitate her for days. I live in the fucking library studying for the DATs. I don’t party hardcore anymore. All these girls are dating fucking losers because they’re more fun. I now know that when I become a dentist, I will know that these girls who ride the carousal will only date me in the fucking future because I am husband material.
Advice: If you were a groveling Asian dude like me who was hung up on one girl, fucking go monk mode. Being by myself has taught me a lot about myself. I have relied on myself more and more, eaten by myself, and have gotten a confidence boost. I see whipped guys with hot girls and realize that the poor dude was me three years ago. Thank the Red pill for teaching me to improve myself, give myself goals, get stronger, and to find out
TL:DR Red pill has taught me to disregard females: acquire goals.