I came across TRP as a result of desperation and exasperation with my 13 year marriage and wife. At first glance, I thought it was mainly rants by the male version of neo-feminists, so I dismissed it and kept searching for answers. But something brought me back.

I've been reading and attempting to digest the info for a week now. Addictively. Like lost sleep because I can't get enough. The articles and posts have caused epiphany after epiphany as I look back over my adult life. I see quite clearly now that I am (was) a Beta with a capital B. I THOUGHT it was what I was SUPPOSED to do.

I'm going to share a couple things that happened in the last two days. Two nights ago, wife is pissed or distraught about something, and, of course, I dared not say anything to prevent an argument. Snuck upstairs and pretended to be asleep. The next morning, as I'm leaving for work, same thing. Cold stares, icy expressions, talking to the kids, but not me.

As I sat in my car, ready to leave for work, I thought screw it, I'll give this TRP thing a try. I texted her the following: 'I don't know what's wrong with you, but tonight we ARE going to discuss it'. I swear, I damn near had to throw my phone out of the car to keep from sending a follow-up text that said 'I'm sorry' or 'we can talk when you're ready'. Like seriously, broke out in a sweat.

The day goes by and no return text. That night, I get home and she's drunk and passed out in bed. Next morning, I repeat the same text with the addition of telling her not to get drunk or plan any kids activities to escape talking.

I truly have no idea where this stuff came from, but I began and ended the conversation in a few sentences. I told her our sex life was terrible (long standing argument) and without her active participation, I didn't see it viable to stay married to her long term. I added that I USED to tell her, no BEG her, to initiate sex because that's how I got my self-worth and value, and I needed to feel needed, but this is no longer the case. I now have plenty of self worth (a lie) because I'm a great father, a high income earner, good looking, have a big heart and a big cock. And if she didn't value those things, it doesn't mean that the rest of woman kind would not.

I shit you not, 20 mins later, she snuggles up to me and asks me to pound her doggie style. I think she would have done anything I asked. This has NEVER happened in 13 years.

So now, as I sit and think through this week, I'm torn between utter astonishment that TRP actually works and bitter sadness and anger that I wasted 23 years of my adult life being a beta.

Sorry the long post, my first one ever. I just wanted to extend a heartfelt thank you to those who share TRP info and stories and that it really does change lives. It is changing mine. I'm never going back. Ever.