As with these things, it's kind of hard to write. Not because it's difficult to put into words what's happening, but because it's hard to herd all the seeming complexities together.

Anyway I've been seeing this chick for almost a year. I suppose I should make a /deadbedrooms post to give you some idea. I think she's a fun character and all but our relationship is toxic and I want out.

Here's the problem: our assets are so god damn intertwined and if I were to get out, she'd be out on her ass and I can't have that. So I worked out an idea that I'll hook her up for 6 months or so and then "we'll see how our relationship works out."

I know what you're all thinking now: simp, beta, whatever - but, she did carry me through the pandemic financially when I was laid off. I'm getting paid handsomely now such that I can afford to carry her a little bit but the original setup was that she would go to med school (2 years). I'm now realizing maybe 1500/mo for 2 years isn't such a good idea (i make about 150k with an upper limit of 250 and maybe more if I make it google or Stripe or something). Some people don't even make that.

It felt unfair. Why? Because we started having minor squabbles over shit and it's just fucking soul draining.

A buddy of mine suggested I pack the shit I own (as much of it as I can) into a car and leave my very nice apt that's about to run out of a lease and go to Nevada, abandoning all.

I just turned 30 and I'm petrified at the prospect of dating. Clearly, wasn't great at it before. With covid, don't even know what that means anymore.

Anyway, tl;dr, stuck with a person I am no longer in love with and having serious fiscal responsibilities as well as co-mingled assets. We're not married and have no kids so that helps.

Blurt out what you're thinking.