Sorry for the following rant but I just had to share this nugget.

Woman A.

She's been a CC ever since last year and has slowed down considerably. She currently is seeing this guy. He's built like a quarterback, works as a bouncer and looks like a model. He's deep, and thoughtful, understanding and kind. He's got insane social proof as he knows everyone in the club and music scene in the city. He works part time within construction and is handy around the house. Well adjusted without any major criminal conviction but has been in fights and can carry himself really well. Allegedly, he's hung and fucks like a bull and isn't emotionally available all the time.

Despite all these qualities, I hear her looking for reasons to drop him. She'd pick fights and complain about nonsense and I'd hear her try to rationalize each transgression. Ultimately, I'd come down to the fact that she misses her previous 'real' relationship. This guy was an Alpha to the max. He didn't care about her and went even so far as to suggest hint pimping her out to his friends. He'd treat her like garbage but he was a "man". He didn't take shit from anybody, made over a six figure salary, and did what he want when he wanted. He was dominant outside and inside the bedroom. He'd leave randomly and cheat on her but make it up to her by using her to sate his sexual appetite. He'd brag about her being a 'cock monster' and once ditched her at the airport because she was stirring drama.

So here I am listening to all this. Her current bf is awesome and actually a nice person but given the chance she'd be on her previous X at a drop of a hat and while I'm not certain of this (wasn't there) I'm pretty sure she has cheated on current bf with Alpha when he was having a B-day party in another city.

Woman B

'Happily married' Christian woman. Married her high school sweetheart and has three wonderful kids. Active in her community, friendly and outgoing, and an all around positive person. She works in the same company as me but in a different building so occasionally we'd have lunch. She tells me about this crush that she has at the office. Tall, mysterious, new guy that's younger and more attractive than I think she could realistically land. Well, turns out that this guy sent her a few 'let's fuck' vibes that made her quiver. Suddenly, she's having fights with her husband, spending more time in the office and putting on more make up. "Issues" just keep coming up and while she would "never do anything" she does tell me that she wonders about the state of her marriage.

There was a time where this would shock me to the core. Now, it just serves as an example. I never understood the game and bought the blue lifestyle down to the core. I internalized it and wanted to lead an example of it. You could find a unicorn, marry that, and get the woman that loves you and cares for you while fucks you like a psychopath. If it didn't work it was because of YOU failing to compromise enough, be understanding, do more to be a better person for HER.

Now, here I sit listening to two women try to rationalize their actions. Woman A has what I constantly joke as the PERFECT man and Woman B is ruining her marriage to chase someone that in all likeness is just fucking with her ego.

I was seeing a woman recently but ended it. I pushed her away. Broke frame. Part of me wanted to go back but I caught myself. That is scarcity. That is setting myself up as a Beta. That's giving away whatever self respect I have left.

Plates break. The end game shouldn't be validation through commitment and especially if the end result is being tied to a CC that's missing the pounding she got from her Alpha chad. Or being the Beta supporter to a woman planning on swinging branches.

Better to live a life of self improvement, gratification and freedom then that nonsense.