"Id like to play a game"

So a long time off and on LTR of mine decided to go nuclear last week, and although im not feeling any direct fallout from the situation, the emotional attachment and oneitis still lingers and rips at my sanity from time to time.

I met this girl about a year and a half ago, about 3 months after my divorce with my now ex wife. I discovered TRP a month after my ex wife cheated, and it has helped me in ways I cannot explain. Even though it has helped me get laid on numerous occasions, the biggest benefit has been from the focus on myself as well as lifting. If you are on this sub and don't lift, you might as well practice your golf swing with a dildo.

This girl was a plate of mine for about six months, during which I had multiple ONS, other plates, and constantly getting numbers. (abundance right?) It helped me avoid attachment to any single plate, keep things light, and I was always on my A game because of it.

She was a very good girl to me during those first 6 months, and since she had a very low N count, always treated me like a king, never refused sex and was constantly willing to do whatever I wanted, I felt as though she deserved some kind of upgrade.

She went from Plate status to FWB, and eventually to an LTR. Within about two weeks of being an LTR, a former plate had reached out to her and put all my dirty laundry out in the open about all the times we fucked while we had been seeing each other at the same time. Big mess. I probably should have just cut it off there.

Sam, my new LTR, decides to show up at my house to confront me about what shes heard. I don't even open it for discussion. I completely write off the conversation and tell her she needs to leave. The fact that she has listened to someone else talk about my private business was enough of an offense to me. I don't care what she's found out. We don't speak for two weeks.

As all these things go, she eventually comes back, and is treating me like a king, but reminding me of my sins every time she gets insanely upset. I do my best to not entertain these upsets, and try to only reward good behavior and cutting her off at bad. We continue to see each other for another year.

Fast forward to last week. About a year and some change later. I have STILL been talking to this girl for a few reasons.

Since my divorce I had been extremely cut off from most people. I am a single dad and having relationships in that situation is extremely difficult. I broke some cardinal TRP rules here.

1. Her toddler daughter(single mom, dad gone) and my toddler son spent a decent amount of time together. It filled voids especially since I live near no family or have any friends. Making guy friends who want to hang out with you and your kid is damn near impossible.

2. I settled for someone that was constantly hot and cold because I enjoyed the perks that came with it. Almost monthly she would get mad at me for thinking I was fucking other women, or being "done with someone who can't commit" and eventually come back. During the breaks I would spin plates, she would come back, and without telling her she was playing first fiddle again every time she came back. My N count is fairly high, and without telling her I knew she was in the top 3 most insane girls in the sack i've ever had. Most of this was due to my teaching/guidance, our sex never started off that way. It sort of worked its way up after a few months, but it was fucking amazing when it got there. Even though I was sleeping with other girls, the abundance couldn't keep me off that ass. I had never connected with someone sexually like this before in my life.

3. Single mothers are to be avoided at all costs, unfortunately for me being a single dad attracts them like flies to a lantern, and most girls without kids want nothing to do with a child that they didn't push out.

   Last week she pushes the whole "where is this going. I need to know this is real" bullshit on me. I get its a test, but at this point we have been seeing each other too long for me to just joke it off or just give some half ass non serious answer. I tell her "im not ready to move in with someone, and we can't accidentally have another kid especially since we both already have our own."

If it were up to her she would have half her shit here already and her daughter would have adopted my last name. I was NOT going to let that happen just because I couldn't risk the potential problems that would create for myself as well as my own son.

Monday night rolls around and I get home from the gym. Shes cooked me dinner, dressed sexy as fuck, and the kids are asleep. She fucks me like its my last night on earth, and lets me do anything and everything I want. This is how it usually is but tonight she wore an outfit which was a nice bonus.

The next day I sense she is acting funny.

"Everything ok? you seem like you're in a mood"

"im fine, just tired"

"ok."

I know she's lying.

I go to work and she asks me for my address(she and her daughter were staying over for the weekend) and says her phone is dying, so to just come inside when I get home. For whatever reason I get the feeling that shes actually leaving my house and just call her out on it.

"if you are leaving just make sure I get my keys. I dont know what your'e upset about this time but whatever it is it needs to wait until tomorrow."

She says "fine, im going to leave the house decorated the way it is, just take us home in the morning"

Im like "wtf decorated??" but don't continue the conversation.

When I get home, I open the door to a printed out sign that says "id like to play a game" and a picture of the guy from the SAW movies. the one with the red circles on his cheeks.

1. Take a shot! (this was sitting on the counter, a bottle of tequila. No fucking way was I doing that shit. I already had a bad feeling when I opened the door and I wasn't taking my chances.

2. Do you love me? ( the definition of "love" printed out on a piece of paper sitting next to the question. Definitely weirded me out.

3. Keep going! you have a sexy surprise waiting for you!

( at this point I even wondered for a second if this was a setup and she was laying in my room in her underwear ready to fuck me, but I still had a sick feeling I couldn't shake, and I knew this was no sexy surprise.

4. Remember all the amazing memories we have shared?

(pictures of us all over the floor, pictures of our kids, pictures of us on dates, everything)

5. Note on the door. "You are the only man I have been with since the day we met. I have loved you and only you since then, and I have been loyal to you from day one. Open the door and claim your prize"

I open my bedroom door. To my horror, my bed is COVERED in printed out photos of every nude, tinder pic, saved photo, texted photo and picture of any female I ever found attractive over the past two years that we have been off and on. Even photos girls had taken in my house during short breakups. In between all the photos are notes saying "LIAR", "MONSTER", "DESTROY EVERYTHING, ERASE ME FROM YOUR LIFE" "I WISH MY DAUGHTER NEVER MET YOU" etc etc etc.

I was nothing short of fucking horrified that this was in my own home. I took photos of everything and grabbed everything and got if off my bed.

It sickened me to do it but I went into the guest bedroom where she and her daughter was sleeping and immediately woke them up.

"you need to leave. Immediately."

"what! Im here with my little girl what do you expect us to do! Blah blah blah blah"

she starts to yell.

Its 3am. I know what cops do.

"Im leaving, im going to my brothers house. You and your daughter need to be gone in the morning."

She tries to talk to me and "discuss" the situation and I am already out the door. I was absolutely sick to my stomach that she did what she did. It was like coming home to something out of a horror film.

She tries calling numerous times and I do not answer. My brother tells me not to listen to the voicemails she leaves. I take his advice.

I go back to the house at noon the next day. Its cleaned up, things are in the trash, her things are gone. She and her daughter are gone.

I block her on ALL social media, email, text, etc.

turns out she had found all the pictures TWO DAYS before she did all this. Which means she still fucked me like crazy afterwards. I was completely mindfucked after finding that out EVEN after understanding the TRP truths that explain the reasoning behind that.

This was the first time she ever did anything like this. I guess seeing pictures of naked women in your house can make someone crazy. Maybe she already is crazy. All I know is that bitch had to go. Im still oneitis over it and still hurt by it. I had something I really enjoyed even though I couldn't go all the way with it. Sex/emotional connection/family void/fun shit with other women never did for me what with this woman did. The minute you feel like you cant live without something is the same minute you need to remove it from your life.

you never know how insane people can be until you seriously fuck with them, even accidentally.

Not sure if this is AWALT, BPD, Crazy, or Im just an asshole and this is how women react to that. Just had to share.

EDIT; getting a lot of hate for being a "cheater". Totally understand.

After catching your wife cheating it becomes pretty difficult to believe anything that comes out of a woman's mouth.

"im not your ex", "its only been you", "you're the love of my life" etc etc.

We have ALL heard it before. Even when I was fully committed I still took everything she said with a grain of salt knowing very well she could be gone at any point. When she would say "its over, i'm leaving"(happened almost every 2 months) I would say "ok" and get back to my life. Fucking other women then getting back together is not the same as cheating. When we were actively together I had no need to sleep around because the sex was better than anyone and I actually liked this person. I also don't automatically just jump back into a relationship when a woman decides she's not mad at me anymore. You can't just have girl go from LTR, down to plate, up to LTR whenever the fuck she feels like it. You walk out, you get demoted. period. Im sure I wouldn't have been happy to see what I saw in her phone during all the times we were "broken up" but thats not my fucking business and I respect boundaries.

My biggest mistake was shooting up with black tar sex heroin and mistaking it for unicorn blood. I should have stopped talking to her after the first "break up".