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I can't do it. I just can't. I have no idea what I did wrong but, I clearly I did do something. I've been dating her for 10 years and known her since i was a kid. We had moved in together, we were soulmates. I waited so long to get married because, I made a promise I would be in a stable position at my job so we could start a family. I did everything I could for her.

We were to be married 2 weeks ago. I was at the altar waiting for her. She never came. She disappeared. Her family knew and didn't say a thing. They all watched as i waited for her to come. When they found her gone, everyone looked at me. Can you imagine the shame, the humiliation I felt at that moment? I cried, I fucking broke down and cried like a baby in my dads arms.

I went home and she had already gone. She had clearly planned this in advance. Everything was gone. No note, no nothing. Her family weren't talking to us either. They cut us out. They were in on it. They always hated me. They always said I wasn't good enough for her...

I can't get over it. I can't. I was supposed to be on my Honeymoon this week. I was supposed to be having the time of my life with my wife. Now I'm sleeping alone in the dark. I've been drinkin all day, everyday. I just want the pain to stop. I can't go on like this.

I loved her, I loved her for more then anything. She was my life, my best friend. I don't know what to do but,I just cant go on it hurts too bad.

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