For most of my late teens and early twenties I was a LVW/NVW. I've made so many mistakes and I'm not proud at all of the person I used to be. I've been a pick-me, treated people badly, been selfish, been toxic and manipulative, gone for a friend's ex, talked shit about everyone, ruined my relationships/friendships with drinking, associated with L/NVM etc.

I look back at everything that's happen and don't know how to move on. I'm happy with where I am now, I have a great boyfriend, great friendships, an awesome job, working on myself everyday to be a better person, and am at a place I never thought i'd be in life. But every now and then I keep looking back and going down the rabbit hole of these lost friendships/relationships and wishing I was different & playing scenarios in my head about how i'd handle those situations differently now.

The people in my life now would be surprised to see how I used to be, even I barely recognize myself compared to the woman I was in the past. But it hurts to know that it could have all been different if I was just better and knew what I know now. Have any ladies here been in a similar situation, or even if you haven't, have any advice on how to move forward and not be so hung up on regrets?