I've always identified as a straight women, and have always thought about dating men, getting married to a man one day.

Over the past few months, my attraction to men was seriously declining. I mean, this was before covid but, I've been doing a lot of thinking and self reflecting and over time I have concluded I've almost completely written off from men.

I guess the bad dating scene where I live has a lot to do with it, maybe not. But the attitude, arrogance and overall behaviour among most men is atrocious. Men act so disgusting lol, claiming to be "equal" yet expecting women to initiate contact, text first, etc. Whilst just sitting back, expecting women to do the work and just have this lazy, arrogant attitude to pursing women. Its a huge turn off.

Men can't take rejection either. They are really emotional abusive and love negging women and love messing up with women's self esteem. They are mostly all porn sick, unhygienic, have a bad personality and are entitled. (Its either one or the other)

Even the most unhygienic loser who barely puts any effort in his appearance has the audacity to demand a supermodel, or is highly critique of another women's looks. (True situation with a guy I have dated)

I realised that my main reason for pursuing love and relationships is because of societal condition, not because I actually love men or want a relationship. I've decided that I don't want to put effort into dating men. I just because less and less attracted to men everyday.