I posted previously about how my current apartment has been getting a lot of new tenants that are questionable ie someone was robbed, and there was a cop impersonator knocking at my door. So I looked around and finally got approved for a new place. This one is a house rather than an apartment and I've checked out the neighborhood a lot and it seems like a much better environment.

I'm just feeling extra nervous to follow through with the move- I already spent a lot of money just to travel to the area do all the house tours, neighborhood drives to checkout the areas, and house tours. It has been exhausting. Moving is also super expensive when it's far like this - and the startup costs between traveling, moving my stuff, the deposits, all the fees...etc

I want to feel happy and excited because moving there was always a goal. It's tempting to just throw in the towel and run back to live at my parents house for free. But I am 26 and I want to continue living on my own. My parents are toxic. My mom has mental health issues she refuses to get treatment for, she is always screaming at early hours of the morning, trash talking me, and instigating. When she saw my new car, she said she hated it and then deliberately scratched it. Anyone outside the family advises me to never live there again, and thankfully I've been on my own more or less since college.

I'm not worried about finding a job, I have an LLC and money saved up to cushion myself. All my other bills are already prepaid a few months in advance because I knew the cost of moving would be a lot. I am terrified to fail but it is motivating me to push harder to succeed.

Does anyone have advice to help me feel better about the move. Renting a house feels like it's a lot to take on but I am so done with apartments and sketchy neighbors and pot smells polluting my unit as well the yapping dogs. I know I can afford the rent and the utilities I just think the startup costs and the exhausting process of physically moving loading and unloading is taxing me, and on top of it then having to go out and shopping for new groceries, the one utility makes you go in person to do it, getting the laundry and setting it up, it's just tough