Good Day, I am ready for the lashing to begin as it is nothing that I haven't endured from my wife (SAHM) as I am beta as fuck. To start I have read the side bar every ounce of it some twice. I rambo'd for the first couple of weeks and now I think that I am trying to figure out my long game. Six months ago about 2 1/2 months before I found this site my wife and I got into a huge blow out fight and I was attempting to verbally spar with her and lost as expected but didn't back down at all. So instead of her backing down she tasered me with a 1Kw taser not as bad as you would think. This was not the first time that she has become extreme. We have been married 8 years and now I finally woke up to find the boat in the rocks and her on a long tether line. No cheating and sex once a week and when she is ovulating everyday if not twice a day. She got into this marriage at the wall but honestly is still hotter then women a decade younger(35). Crazy hot came with just plain crazy.
I do not want to taker her verbal and physical abuse anymore. So I came here and started reading the side bar and working out 3x a week, spending time apart - picking up old hobbies etc. But then some medical problems got worse and now the doctor has revoked my drivers license for the time being so I can not even get out of the house unless I walk which we live in a rural area so that doesn't work.
I was leaning on getting my shit together and if she didn't respond leave her and work my ass off to get some good custody rights for my only daughter(toddler age) but now that I can not drive things have gotten much worse as we spend way too much time together!
What I am looking for is a productive lashing to get me heading in the right direction again while I am stuck at home suffering through illness and my wife. This was a quick and poorly worded just trying to find the little time I have alone to write this. Like I said beta as can be and working to change but I see this as a long long road ahead.
Finally have time to write again. Thank you for all the advice! I realized more than anything that I have normalized her behavior and ignored and moved on too easily in the past. As my post earlier was poorly written, the taser attack was over 2 months ago and she has not physically abused me sense. Probably because I have walked on eggshells and tried to not rock the boat but now I am done playing along in her game! I will meet with a lawyer tomorrow and discuss what options that I have going forward as I do not have any physical evidence and was told that without witnesses or evidence that the authorities are unlikely to believe me and if she is really that crazy she will probably hurt herself and blame me and then I will end up in jail. So I am going to go sit down tomorrow morning and figure out my options going forward.
The doctors have told me that they think that it is menieres with otolithic crisis of Tumarkin. I know you can not make this stuff up, crazy name. Vertigo (the world looks like it is spinning but you are sitting still and I randomly fall over without warning, but it has been getting better with some drugs. So I am hoping that I will be fine but I was told it is something that comes and goes the rest of your life and there is not sh*t you can do about it and I am losing my hearing in the process.
I feel like less of a victim now then I ever have. Thank you for all the posts!