Hey gents,

It’s been a while since I have posted here.

I went through a dead bedroom, which lead to the 12 steps of dread which led to me to lifting, improving, divorcing and regaining a fulfilling sex life.

Since then I have been dating a woman who seemed very noncommittal (wishy washy on communication, made me a low priority, etc.)

Finally, corner turned and she was in love with me and I was seeing a side of her I never saw before. During this time she found evidence (notes, pictures, etc) of other women I was sleeping with when I thought she was over with (it happened 2-3 times, but there were a lot of encounters during those periods).

I basically crushed this girl who I thought I was exclusive right at the time where everything was clicking for us.

For a couple months after the discovery, we went in this limbo phase where sh was madly in love (post selection dread). Then she broke up with me, then got back together a couple times and now we are together, but she is a shell of a person.

There is little to no communication, and the sex has stopped (due to a legitimate infection she has been dealing with for over a year and per doctors orders I was in the meeting on).

I broke this girl’s trust in me and anything good I have done over the year is worthless (briffaults law).

I am wondering if I should just end it, or fight to get it back to the ways things were as unlikely as this is (probably Onitis effecting me).

I’ll keep lifting and reading.