So I'm 5'11 225lbs and 15% bodyfat, reading NMMNG and the Bible everyday, also listening to inspiring sermons every morning. Currently focusing on dropping down to a healthy 10-12% bodyfat that isn't struggling with body dismorphia issues. I also decided to let go of my failing business and start over from the ground up by getting an entry level job and possibly even change fields as the future comes.

I have come to terms with reality, I lost my business and my savings, I have no value in the eyes of any women besides a quick fuck. And if I dont have that then I literally have nothing to offer anyone. But the difference in between me and them (those expecting an offer from me) is time. If I can become successful once then I can do it again. I assuming that most of you guys with failed marriages (infidelity) have scorched the ground behind them so you didn't have to deal with a terrible person while you built yourself up.

I have to admit it's not really that bad, but I find myself "scorching the ground" almost every time my wife tries to cross a boundary of mine. As a result she normally gives me my space until she is ready to fuck again. At this point I realize there isn't a real point to me saying any of this other than that it doesn't feel normal at all. I always find myself raising my voice to kept her out of my space, and frankly I'm ready to get my own apartment again just to leave her (something I had before my business went underground). I didn't discover TRP until after I canceled .my lease and now I live with this miserable person 24/7. I know in about a year I'll have enough income to just pay both rents, but right now I just can't (no current income) so how do you guys manage this if you did?

I'm basically fucked until I get more money right? Normally the answer to this problem is easy, drink and smoke more, run longer and lift even fucking harder right? Well I'm 31 years old and I been practicing ALL of these things since I was 16 years old with dreams of being a professional bodybuilder. Is there any advice out there that isn't "deal with this shit and be patient"?