Got in a pretty big fight with GF over the course of this last week. Basically, she figured out that I wasn't certain about long term plans with her and this spiraled down a trail of some of the concerns I had with our relationship. She said she felt judged and that I was a selfish person etc. We met up every day to discuss things and I was very agreeable, apologetic, and level-headed because I'm just trying to resolve things. I have a lot of stress on my plate, so I don't need this right now. She is normally a pretty reserved person (has anxiety) and is normally calm. This week it was like I was seeing a completely different person.

She starts getting really pushy and demanding that I change a bunch of behavior. One thing in particular is that I tend to not be very responsive over text sometimes due to my busy schedule. I'm also rather blunt with my responses because I don't like having conversations over text (prefer phone/face-to-face due to ambiguity caused by texts). I have my own business, so I spend most of the day on the phone with clients/leads. She has always known I'm a busy person - I work every day and have my own hobbies (powerlifting/rockclimbing). I tell her "I will do the best of my ability to be more responsive with text messaging and I need you to believe that."

She agrees and I think the problem is solved. She tells me that we shouldn't see each other the next day so that she can cool down. I go "that sounds good, I'll wait for you to text me so that there is no confusion." I decide to go rock climbing with my buddies in the morning. We get caught out in a bad thunder storm and she's texting me while we are trying to get off a mountain in a dangerous situation. I tell her "Can't talk right now, caught in bad storm. Will call you when I'm free." She texts me 12 PARAGRAPHS absolutely telling me off, saying I should be able to text still and that she doesn't believe me. I literally can't pull my phone out due to the rain and I can't call her because you can't hear shit. I'm also more focused on not breaking an ankle while running down a mountain. Her last text is a fake break up text, saying that I obviously don't care about the relationship.

I Facetime her when I get back to my car explaining the situation and showing her that I'm absolutely drenched from head to toe and that there was no way to text. She goes "okay fine, but you still weren't thinking about MY feelings and you clearly aren't as upset about this as I am because you were able to go rockclimbing." She goes off on me for not caring about our relationship, not being as upset as her, taking her for granted and all that shit. Basically, she wants me to be as emotional as she is and I'm no where near that. I'm not going to sit in my apartment crying about us like she wants - that's not how I deal with things. At this point I absolutely lose it and spend the next 5 minutes yelling at her. I call her a "fucking psycho" and hang up. I tell her I will contact her when I cool down. We meet up the next day and she is very apologetic and acknowledges that she was pretty irrational.

So we've officially made up now. Problem is, I see the crazy eyes now and they weren't really there before. She has been slowly weening herself off of anxiety/depression medication, so I've tried to factor that in. However, I have been unable to orgasm when we have sex now and it's almost like my dick is telling my brain to play it safe or something. I'm wondering if I got a glimpse into crazy and might potentially be dodging a bullet by breaking things off. I think my dick is trying to tell me something. Would love love an outside perspective. Thanks.