I'm going to be 32 in May. I swallowed the pill last fall. Been lifting three days a week and doing cardio on the other two since then (I take weekends off). Been eating better. I've read the sidebar and numerous recommended reading materials (NMMNG, Rational Male, Models, Pook, Bang, Meditations, Pimp, My Secret Garden. I read The Game at 21 but never had the balls to do anything with that knowledge).
I have two jobs (might be about to have 3), numerous hobbies, short and longterm goals. I groom myself daily. I'm getting better at dressing, seeing what works and what doesn't. I've limited my porn usage to one day a week.
Despite all this, I cannot approach women. I cannot get the "I am the prize" mentality. I don't feel that way. I don't know how to get around this. I'm trying to maintain positive mindset but after growing up in a sexually repressed Catholic household (I didn't lose my virginity until I was 22), I have always had problems with women. I didn't really talk to them at all as a teenager. I was a total beta slob until I was 26 and have gained marginal improvement since then, with the improvement drastically increasing over the past few months. I had my first serious relationship at 26 and it only lasted 2 and a half years. Since that relationship ended, the only kind of sex I've had is the kind that's been bought and paid for in some way. I have had maybe ten or eleven willing partners in my life, and most of my relationships have averaged only a few months. The rest have all been pure onetime transaction, save a lone one-night-stand at the age of 25.
Obviously something is wrong. But as a guy who clearly has his shit together, I don't understand how I can increase my SMV any further. I have never considered myself to be a prize, and unless I achieve my lofty longterm goals, I don't know that I ever honestly will. I don't know how to. The "fake it til you make it" bullshit doesn't work with me.
The Red Pill has helped me more than I can articulate here. I really appreciate everything the manosphere does and has done for guys like me. But is there anything I'm missing or anything else I can do?