This girl was 100% a "wild girl". Mid to late 20's, covered in tats, always in the middle of drama and hung around a rough crowd. But she could be fun, and every now and then, you'd get kind of a glimpse of this really sweet girl. She had a kid (no custody), and that was definitely her soft spot.

We'd we message every couple months -- she moved a bit too far to meet up -- but in between her high's and low's, we'd have fun.

I go to message her lastnight after a couple months radio silence, then I find out she died last week. We didn't run in the same circles, and I've been off social media the past month or so, so the news just... really shocked me.

I... don't really know how to convey my thoughts, or feelings. Shocked? Incredibly aware of mortality? But also... well, I dunno if this sounds crass, but... it's a trippy thought, a girl I've slept with, is now dead. Just thinking about a couple of nights we'd spent together, those basically just exist in my own memory now.

I dunno. Is this weird? Not like I'm in turmoil or anything (although, I do feel for her kid). But I feel like... I dunno, I feel something. Don't really know anyone well enough to have this kind of conversation with, though.