I’ve realized most of us that are in this position of TRP have been in the role of the “beta” or the weak kid that got bullied for whatever reason or just didn’t fit in.. when your in that position you start to Become anxious and being anxious builds self consciousness too the point to where I think so many of the insecure guys are too obsessed with themselves and too focused on themselves but at the same time so many of there actions demonstrate the opposite... usually to take actions that’ll make sure we fit in... it’s just all a mind fuck too me and I’m rambling around but my point is being bullied and being stuck in that weak position actually makes u fuckin selfish cause u start to only care about your own fucking problems u lose a part of caring for others. A lot of the things we read in here to help us get woman but then when you really think about it how many of us enjoy a woman’s company? Could u enjoy a woman’s company being completely urself and be genuinely interested??? Maybe some of You can but so far with me I’ve realized I’ve tried to hook up with lots of girls by just hiding the real me... I don’t mean TRP gets rid of ur personality it’s great tools that most men need. But it doesn’t fix the insecurity in our heads. Everytime I think off hanging with a girl I think about the fact oh she might not think I’m good enough what if she judges me for living with my parents at 20 (in reality I know it’s not even very bad but in my head I blow it up) I guess it’s a feeling if I show them my family or what im really like they won’t accept me.. kinda realized a lot of New stuff in the process of writing this. It’s just I realize even tho TRP kinda shifted my view of woman to be more negative I still wann fuck them!!! But that feels like cognitive dissonance we’re putting our hands into the cookie jar even tho we think these cookies are the source of all of our problems WTF IS THAT? Idk I gotta lot of thoughts right now I just wanna be a good person again.. I feeel like TRP has made me view people as objects to avoid being emotionally hurt and although I’ve learned a lot about woman and life. I’ve been lifting a lot which is like my favourite thing to do. I still feel like it’s all just fixing the mask on the outside!! A homeless man could feel super content with himself and that’d be very different from a millionaire who’s insecure... a lot of TRP fixes the external shit which is great it gets us through the door in many cases but it doesn’t make us whole. In my head it always seems to circle back to self acceptance even if u a fucking bum man. All the pain and insecurity comes from comparing urself to others. Yes being honest and realizing ur a bum and u need to change is important but u can do that without beating urself up.