A couple of weeks ago, a buddy of mine was encouraging me to jump on some dating app -- Hinge, I think? -- sorta out of the blue. I laughed and said "I dunno, maybe", and then he got all serious. He was saying "I know you, man, and I know you're not the type of guy who's really happy being alone". I thought about it for a second, and responded "Actually, I think I'm genuinely happy right now. In fact, I'm not sure I'd even want a relationship anymore".

He thought I was just making excuses at first, but after a while he was like "Well fair enough, more power to you". And really, there was a point he would've been right. But just over the past year or two, I've really grown and changed quite a bit, and it got me kind of reflecting that for the first time, I really don't give a shit about having a "girlfriend" of any kind. Yeah, a fuck-buddy would be great, but I feel like I'm finally starting to get more of a clear vision for my life, and focusing on what I want instead of other people.

But on the other hand... I also feel like, this is a mentality that could totally lead to me becoming a lonely old man one day. There is definitely a part of me that still wants kids one day, and at 33 years old, you know I'm not a kid that can afford to be wishy-washy for years longer.

But I dunno. At the same time, I'm finally making a lot of positive changes for myself -- improving my health, looking at braces and maybe lasik eye-surgery, just becoming a person I want to be -- and honestly, another part feels like after a lifetime of anxiety and depression weighing me down, I'm almost at a point I can just "have fun".

I dunno. Not looking for a specific "answer" I guess, so much as just other guys' thought process on shit like this?