My ex-gf cheated. Broke it off 2 weeks ago, full no contact. And I feel different towards women now. I have since fucked 2 girls and had one session with a pro. This includes a pull from a nightclub and same-night-lay, something I have never been able to do before.

For me, this is an unprecedented volume of sexual activity in a short time span. I actually find myself saying "wow I've had lots of sex with alot of strangers lately, I think I can slow down now and focus on work, chores and hobbies, I proved my point". I was proving a point to myself - abundance.


I started life as deeply bluepill as you can possibly get. I read everything on Amused Mastery, OI, etc., and practiced it, but never really 'bought the farm'. I was just visiting, renting the attitude when I felt like I needed it, and then going back home to bluepill land where I could dream of True Love.

But now I understand. It took my unicorn cheating for it to finally sink in.

I went out to that club where I made my pull and saw all of the women. Some cute and innocent. Some slutty and drunk. Some old and tired, some fat and insecure.

They all looked different, but they all looked the same. I found myself approaching, dancing and flirting with anyone that caught my eye. I didn't care if they liked me or not. I wanted a fuck but didn't really need one, I was still having fun and practicing.

Then I realized that these girls don't deserve any kind of 'special treatment'. My unicorn showed me that. Doesn't matter how sweet, sexy and genuine she seems.. she's a female. So I stopped feeling guilty about my approaches, I stopped feeling guilty about being aggressive and assertive.

I noticed all of this in one night. Such a massive change from the way I felt before, even with TRP ringing in my ears, but still believing that the 'right woman' deserved honorable treatment. And since I was always on the lookout for the 'right woman', I treated them all that way, and got shut down accordingly 99% of the time. I had somehow hamster-fucked myself into thinking that the bluepill behavior I knew was bad was actually ok, because the 'right woman' would be the only one to respond positively to such enlightened advances.

My lay for that night shit tested. She jabbed. She deferred to her friend for sarcastic judgments of my behavior. Calling me "aggressive", and "cocky". And she also grabbed for my arm when I looked like I might walk away, and acted like the Messiah himself had returned after I spent 60 seconds away from her grabbing a drink.

At the end of the night I got LMR when trying to take off her panties.. until I bent her over and spanked her with a elk-leather flanged tip whip, and proceeded to finger her and push all of her little fuck buttons. She told me we wouldn't have sex, she's not that kind of girl.

We end up having sex after she takes her panties off and grinds on my dick, getting herself soaking wet. I'm just chilling there, letting her do whatever, until the angle was just right for her next grind and "oops", it slipped in! Just an accident, it's not her fault.


This is a combination of many elements I've read about here. Amused Mastery. Outcome Independence. Being unafraid of rejection. These are things contained within you - but it's tricky, because..

It has to do with how you view women, as well. You can't truly believe in Abundance if you still believe that some women are Special Snowflakes.

You can't truly believe in Outcome Independence if you are failing to get laid, or if you still believe that sex is "special".

And you can't truly have Amused Mastery with women until you have really seen how they think, how they act, how childish they can be, how easily they can be confused and misled, how easy they are to arouse and dominate... and how quickly they will betray your love if you are foolish enough to give them that power. Because lets face it, you aren't special, either. If you can find her buttons, so can someone else. Just a matter of time before that "new" feeling you give her wears off, and some other top-20% redpill alpha comes along with the field manual for activating Niagara Falls in her panties.


My #1 takeaway from this experience has been humility. When I was with her, I acted like I knew better. Like hey man, I've read all that TRP shit, I'm on the right track here, she's a solid girl, I can make this love thing work for real this time and not be a chump. Those guys yapping on my advice threads are angry losers.

And the opportunity to apply that lesson is already here. Every ounce of love that I had for her is trying to convince me in all kinds of ways to get her back, even after I've fucked other women, because I looooove her. I can make it work, I can plate her, I can be in an open relationship, etc.

But y'know what? Redpill seems to agree that digging through the trash is a bad idea.

And for once, I think, I'll listen without having to prove it to myself the hard way.