I've accepted TRP for a better part of two years know. It's even gotten me ahead in situations. I've even scored because of it. And i've done a lot of evolving over these past two years.

However;

For the love of all that is holy, I still can not get over the fact that I need affirmation from a woman. I seek attention and I need the approval. I constantly catch myself doing that. Now it is no longer the noob level stuff, and I now know that I am doing it. I don't make myself a doormat. However, I do stupid things on purpose. Things in my mind that will get me "accepted" and "noticed".

I know it's bad, and I know I am doing it. Yet I am not doing anything about it. I just want to love a carefree life of not needing woman's attention... yet... I can't. Im just a Leo seeking and needing that attention. :)

Got myself an interesting catch-22 here.