A bit of background. I was in LTR for 3 years which ended 1 month ago. I am 28 she is 24. She wanted to get married, have kids etc. I postponed a year on that. Due to circumstances which are money we ended up living with my parents. We live in a small town so the perspectives were either take out a loan to fix my whole house or rent a place. We've decided to save up money so we will be shorter on the loan. Tbh at some point we were thinking about moving to another city but we both didn't know what to do. They were getting alone much better than me tbh so this was not the main reason. The day before we move to another place she comes back from work and starts pouring how we are stagnant and we don't do anything interesting and she can't live like that and I was the hell what did you expect If we were making kids. I know I've lost my frame, became full blue pill didn't run game I was just stagnant I felt it but I didn't do anything about it. To summarize I'm lifting weights, cleaned up my diet, haven't touched a computer game, reading books on self improvement, psychology, TRP, I'm reading the sidebar, I have my own business, which is doing fine for the capabilities of a small town, I'm finishing a master's degree in heat engineering/let's put it this way/ and Im actually thinking of working at the University, teaching students and make a side business, I'm meditating. Even tho I have her 24/7 on my mind, can't stop thinking about her. The fuck is this shit, never felt like this, I've watched alot of stuff about oneitis and unicorns and etc I know where's my problem but I really can't get over her. We live in a small town and she even comes by my workplace chats a bit and leaves and I'm like what ??? Do I need more time, to get over it or what because I'm feeling like I'm going to be like this until the end of time ?