Been feeling lethargic and tired lately, likely a bout of depression that kicked in a few days ago. I don’t really have the resources to travel far or get a therapist either; I’m working a low wage job and I do not have a vehicle. It’s not that I don’t have ambitions or aspirations either, I want to start going back to school, get back into working out and get into music, but it seems impossible if I can’t even summon the energy to turn my tv on at this rate. I’m agitated as it is that my routine fell apart (wake up -> work -> workout at home with podcast/tv in background) and now I’m flat on my ass with zero energy and I feel it affecting my mood, which does zero favors for me even attempting to re-establish a social sphere.

I have a couple hundred dollars from my tax returns and I’m thinking about getting into long boarding so maybe I can do that to blow off some steam and get some sun, or an electric guitar, but I have zero idea whether that would help any and I’m not keen on blowing up that much money if it’s going to be a wrong move.