From 15-19 I was all about self improvement. High energy, fun, DGAF attitude. I wasn’t even aware of The Red Pill. If you’ve seen scarface I was similar to Manny. I wasn’t aware of a purpose or what I was going to do for a career. Truly DGAF, only fun.

Then I got depressed for a year, cured it with shrooms and that attitude never came back. I feel more like a “regular guy” instead of an “overconfident douchebag”.

I’m 21 now, no longer depressed, lost a good 15 pounds of muscle but still muscular. Don’t know my purpose and sometimes stressed about it. I don’t care about self improvement either, I already do the regular stuff.

Lift, Eat Clean, Grooming, Skincare.

My whole vibe is different now and I don’t understand why or how I can get it back.

I used to get asked “what are you on?!” and my answer would be “I’m high on life”. I truly used to feel that way and now I don’t ever feel that way. Just normal or having a good time if I’m out.

Is this what becoming more mature is?

Has anyone else had this situation? I kind of miss my old self.