I dunno, I've been reflecting a lot lately, and at 32, I'm kind of feeling like "I chose the wrong path for my life". I legitimately regret not having pursued getting into the military when I was younger, for a whole litany of reasons.

Thing is, I have a pretty comfortable life. I make a decent enough salary, live in a pretty nice area (just renting; I'll never be able to afford real estate here), and I don't really want for much. If anything, I need to be more aggressive in paying off what debt I have.

But... well, I'm still not "happy". Much of that is directly inwardly; I've always had a ton of insecurities about my appearance, and I struggle to stay motivated to work on myself. And some stuff -- like fixing my teeth, and getting lasik -- will probably take a good amount of money.

Really though, I also don't really have any direction in life. I've become "realistic" to the point I don't really see anything I could do with my life that seems exciting, or worthwhile. I'm not terribly interesting as a person, I don't really have any "hobbies" other than playing video-games, I honestly just feel like I'm "existing". But there's also nothing I want to be doing, either.

I dunno. A while back, someone had once commented that I was essentially "the perfect worker-ant", that I'd essentially been shaped into a person who would probably never be happy. And really, that sort of rings true; I don't enjoy "pushing myself" or being uncomfortable, I don't really enjoy seeking out new things or experiences, most days I'm content to just go directly from my home to work, and then back again.

It just kind of feels like I'm in a boat, just sort of floating there, surrounded by nothing but a thick fog. I don't know where I'm going, and there's not even anyplace I'm trying to get to.

Does that make any sense?

Any of you guys ever found yourself dealing with a lack of direction in life? How do you calibrate what you really want out of life?