I did the dumbest thing of my life and dated a co workers higher SMV last year. She was the biggest crush of my life, the hottest girl who’s ever shown interest in me, and came on to me aggressively. It was like a dream. It lasted five weeks before she blew me off in a a callous way and replaced me with one of her orbiters, causing the worst heartbreak I could ever hope to have. Our workplace got shut down, I got laid off and she got transferred to another branch of the same company. After a brief, awkward LJBF-ship that I foolishly accepted, we had an ugly final exchange, after which I cut all contact and blocked her. 14 months later, I am now eligible for rehire at that site. I’m a lock to get the job, and it would be overall better for me—shorter commute, more hours, and a more casual environment where I feel more at home. The problem is her. I cannot stand to interact with her ever again. I am 100% over the thought of getting back with her, but she is the woman I want, but can’t have because she rejected me. I have spent over a year trying to tear down my mental shine of her. Literally all I have left of her is a stash of texts saved on a hard disk. I can’t stand to give her a hug or make casual conversation with her. She called me out of the blue 5 months ago to talk to me about working there. The convo lasted 8 minutes. It wasn’t awkward at all taking to her, but I was reflexively standoffish and unfriendly. When she made a reference to our relationship last year, I interrupted and snapped “if I do go there, we’re never going to discuss anything that happened last year.” I just don’t trust myself to act normal around her. Would I be nuts to think I can return to work with her?