So, I was browsing through redditt and I saw a girl my age(18). Well, she was like HB9 or even HB10, extremely rich(her dad owns it all obviously, but to a middle class guy like me, I was shocked), blah blah blah.

And the first thing that came to my mind was, "She will always be out of my league."

Now I believe that hardwork always pays off. I am also understand that you should not compare yourself to others or women and not think that the goal of your life is chasing women.

But I have sort of become a NEET for the last 8 months, I had been heavily involved in my country's politics, planning to become President/Prime Minister.

Then I discovered TRP a few weeks ago and I let go of my political identity, deciding to leave politics forever.

Ever since then, I don't study(well, I didn't study during my political phase either), I have kind of become a coomer, I jerk off twice a day, sometimes thrice and have gone back to watching porn, I spend hours on the phone mainly looking for NSFW content, spend time on computer playing Counter Strike WITH BOTS because it isn't connected to the WiFi(very old PC).

Before TRP, I was able to hold my urges and not watch porn at all for 5-8 days.

And then seeing this "out of my league" girl today kind of triggered all this into me. Thinking that "there's always a bigger fish", a guy who will be better than me in terms of SMV no matter how hard I try and he will be the one who takes her home.

Not oneitis, there are obviously more girls like her in my country, I am basically talking about that Tier- HB9 and HB10.

Very depressing.

How do I get out of this NEET/black pilled phase and start working hard so that I get into a good college(which is a huge boost in SMV in my country)?

I know discipline is the key but I have lost the discipline/motivation to develop discipline.