Before I tell you guys my problem, I want to provide context.

Ever since I moved to the US when I was 8, I got relentlessly bullied for my looks and culture. I got made fun of being ugly, short, fat, diff clothing, and other stuff that I can't control. I'm 21 and ever since elementary school I've always had issues making friends and I think it's because I was different culturally, and in other aspects such as clothing, accent and other stuff. Idk If the reasoning was just to bully me, or because of racism but I've been stunned socially ever since.

Fast forward to discovering red pill this year, I did a complete 180. Lost weight, groom,hygiene, started doing well in school. I went from 1.1 GPA to 3.5 GPA, I saved up lots of money and try to keepmyslef productive. Mma, lifting, hooping, studying , reading, etc.

My weightloss completely changed the way people treat me. Ever since I lost a lot of my excess weight, I gained a jawline and my face went from fat to bone structure. I would even consider myself lucky with gaining two extra inches of height at 19-20. My social life went from 0 friends to having like 15 people to hangout with. I also noticed a massive diff with women. I've never approached a single women with the intention to date, hook up, or even platonic. I've only been approached or DMed and it happens a good amount. But none of that shit matters if I can't escalate.

I live in a very small city and all of my childhood bullies and schoolmates know about everyone's business because the city is so small. First girl who I began dating told so many people that I didn't escalate. She stuck with me for a month and I couldn't even escalate.

I know this shouldn't be an excuse and I'm actively trying to separate myself from my old past but it's so hard. I have social anxiety and I honestly believe I have imposter syndrome. I've improved so much, yet I don't believe I deserve it for some reason. I tried talking to therapists but they always shove blue pilled BS.

I feel like such a bitch knowing that women are finally noticing me and I can't even escalate. Any advice or roasts are welcome.