How can I kill the beta and how long does it take? My mother was psychologically abusive at times (basically withholding her love and lack of affection) and I was sexually abused as a child by a neighbor when I was 5. My mother passed away when I was 15. Basically, no father figure growing up and a weird childhood.

I've been talking to women lately but I get attached easily if she's good looking and we click. So what I do is just talk to as much girls as I can and I noticed it's not the girl that I'm talking to that makes me feel this way, it's something I carry inside me. I've digested a lot of red pill content, but somehow I can't seem to heal the injuries I received growing up.