I don't know what the fuck is wrong with me. I need to apply for school, I need to look for a new job, I struggle with basic shit like cleaning my room, I don't read even though I know I should, I even stopped lifting. Despite the fact that I know what will happen if I don't do these things I don't feel any sense of urgency or motivation, and I don't know why.

I feel like I need someone to hold a gun up to my head and threaten my life.

Maybe it will pass.