I’ve known about the redpill for about 5 months, but was too pussied out to try anything. For the past two and a half weeks I made myself the commitment to begin this journey (year resolution and all the bullshit) and I’ve taking lifting and reading the book recommendations by this community seriously (currently the game and how to make friends and influence people). The thing is: I’m socially inept and an anxiety mess which in turn made has made me a loner. I’m too scared to talk to people because of what they could think of me. Even when I’m talking to an Uber or a convenience store cashier. I’m in a constant battle with my anxiety on what to say, do or think. Imagine how it is like to talk to my peers, people in my social circles and girls. I’m fucking terrified. I feel like a fucking chihuahua trembling all the time with all this unnecessary stress. When I’m at the gym or a public setting I feel like everyone is judging me even though I know this is unfounded and ridiculous. I’m not a good looking guy (4.5/10 if I’m being generous) this contributes to that irrational thinking.

This is made worst by the fact I just moved to a new city to continue studying my law degree. Back home, I have my childhood friends and family. I live with my sister, but I’m not with her most of the time due to our different schedules. I have made no friends. I’ve only made acquaintances because of team work in some classes. I’m currently a loner and a judgmental asshole in my comfort zone. The only things keeping me afloat is lifting and reading redpill related content. I’m actually writing this in my free period.

My question is, where do I begin improving my social skill and anxiety? I know that the only way is practice and the book I’m reading is a good start, but I feel this isn’t enough. The fear I have for social situation just makes me feel paralyzed and incapable of achieving what I would consider an average standard for a functioning social human being. I feel if I can’t overcome this my dreams and ambitions are over.

tl;dr: I’m terrified by social situations, I’m socially inept and a loner. Just moved to a new city and no friends, just my sister. I’m already applying most of the newbie redpill basics (lift and reading sidebar content). I feel what I’m doing about my social skills isn’t enough.