I'm starting to have trouble getting it up with my girlfriend. Having difficulty being interested in sex I guess, but I think it is almost just with her. I don't know why, since she's pretty cute and treats me REALLY WELL. So well I'm actually starting to feel guilty about how well she treats me.

A couple weeks ago I fooled around 3 separate times with an ex plate and got rock hard in seconds, and huge. Like a 7" boner. Maybe that was a mistake but it happened. Huge ejaculations too.

She keeps initiating sex and I've turned her down a few times, I did it last night and she was of course very happy but I felt I didn't even get that hard, it was taking a while to get decently hard in her mouth. It went better when I actually did coitus.

I work(Ed) for a defense contractor that lost a contract last week, so I'm basically unemployed unless I pick something else up for finish my degree with the GI Bill. I've also been having weird loss of motivation to workout, and at the gym yesterday for the first time in a couple weeks found I had lost 2 lbs muscle and gained almost 7 lbs of fat. I'm going back again to the gym and am confident I can get back in the groove easily though. I don't know if that is or isn't relevant.

What is going on?? I've always wanted my LTR's badly in the past

Edit: and I've basically been sitting at home since January 4, but my company has kept paying me until last week because they take care of their people