Is it normal to be "out of place" during sex? This girl I met wants sex every second of every day and I can't keep up. 100% zero desire to have sex. Even when she's all over my dick, sucking it and shit. It's like I can't be "into the moment" for lack of a better explanation. I feel like I'm just an operator and I can't feel my body with hers. I just watch. This is every time I've had sex. Am I fucked up by years or porn? I think I have a weird mindset that's basically cuckold. I can pull women but when it comes to sex I can't seem to feel the moment at all. Idk what to do.

I also feel like I can't connect with women. I can attract them sexually but I can't be personally attracted or enjoy them sexually in most cases. It might just be because I've been picking out ugly girls on tinder/bumble for easy fucks, but I never cared if a girl was ugly or not. When it comes to emotions I'm fucked up. I grew up in a household that never shared feelings. Whenever I feel "feelings" bubbling up I always stifle them and "outsmart" them. It's like the circuit is incomplete. It will start to happen then fizzle out before coming to fruition. I just want to feel humanity with another person but I can't. I have passionless sex. It's like everything is without passion when it comes to women, except getting them to be attracted to me, and falling for me. Idk if I'm still in the anger phase and just spiteful or what. What I've learned in TRP is so apparent in real life. It makes everything seem scripted and it's not fun anymore. I feel like a robot.