I will try to keep this as short as possible and format it the best I can but I want to include enough information so you guys can really grasp the situation I am in.

Over the past two years I've had a bad case of onitis for a girl that came on very strong to me initially. For a solid 1-2 weeks this girl seemed hypnotized by me. However me and my zero knowledge of how to interact with women failed to capitalize on this. Mild simping ensues and whatever our relationship initially was painfully morphs into what can be described as good friends.

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We saw each other nearly every day because of class and a competitive engineering team that we were both a part of. I watched helplessly as her attraction for me waned while mine only grew the more I got to know her

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The girl I'm dealing with here:

Now I'm not going to fucking dox her but I want you guys to understand the caliber of this girl compared to where I was coming from.

  • Her and her family are from central Europe but now live in the US
  • Her dad is a highly specialized and successful doctor who owns three houses, a boat and a Ferrari
  • Her sister is a physicist in Switzerland
  • She's a literal 10/10 in my book, even after taking her off the pedestal that I put her on when I met her. Essentially the tall, hot model kind of girl.
  • Extremely interested in science and engineering and career driven
  • Extremely feminine when she's in your frame.
  • Not woke
  • She can literally get excited about soldering and riveting metal together

While I now understand the importance of avoiding onitis and having an abundance mentality, it's undeniable that girls like this don't come by very often.

After school ended due to covid she kept getting in touch with me suggesting that we meet up. Thus, we met up and hung out alot over the past year (always initiated by her). I rarely, if ever, texted her and asked her to meet up. She didn't text me endlessly or use me as an emotional tampon.

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She asked to meet up. We met up. We built robots together and other nerdy shit. I teased her. She teased me. Sexual tension was present at times. I just never knew wtf I was doing to begin with.

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Long story short she stopped texting and initiating meet-ups for a couple months. She recently reached out and wants to meet up again to "catch-up" but she has as boyfriend now.

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My dilemma:

I am 19 years old. I have had basically no communication with any girls, outside of casual friends/co-workers at school and work, over my whole life. I try to have an abundance mindset but that's hard to do without an abundance reality. Thus, I am caught between a rock and a hard place.

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Part of me wants to continue meeting up with her (since this is the only girl that I currently can meet up with) just so I can get better at conversation, teasing, kino, etc. so I actually know what to do when I'm around more girls once Uni opens back up in the fall.

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The other part of me thinks I should just end it with her to avoid beta/simp/cuck status and make it easier to forget about her and crush my onitis.

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I would like opinions on what to do here exactly. If I should just stop meeting up with her, how should I go about it? Just keep saying I'm busy? Or just tell her that we can meet up when she's single? It also seems like a popular idea around here that girls monkey branch, or fuck dudes on the side. Given that, why should I not meet up with her if she reaches out to me first (assuming I'm not being a simp)?

Any advice is appreciated.