I was deep in the matrix my sophomore year at a university majoring computer science. Long story short I met this unicorn that year and stopped caring about school and my life goals. By junior year we broke up, but the damage was enough to get me kicked off of school. That was around December of 2019. I’ve been on TRP ever since.

My Asian parents are strict and loving but they make me feel worthless and at times suicidal. I haven’t told them I’ve been kicked out of the school. My plan right now is to save up and get into a coding boot camp and get a job in the tech industry. This is very attainable in my eyes.

This feeling of worthlessness and knowing I’ve become a loser has taken away every drop of self-confidence and motivation I’ve ever had. How can I get back on my feet, how can I keep away these toxic thoughts? Thanks guys