I'm lost rn. Made some great progress on this 1-year TRP journey but it's just not enough.

All these 'naturals' and early redpilllers posting that they fucked a lot in college and figured out game. Their majors weren't IT oriented like mine where I sat in front of a computer all damn day solving abstract math problems. I fucked a few girls including a few teens and a married women, but I'm still < 10 women I've had vaginal intercourse with. I know I missed out but I can't go back in time and fix it. All I have right now is a computer science degree that can make me more money down the road if I keep slaving away. Which means more time not chasing pussy. And I don't like that alternative at all. Programming is a shitty ROI.

My game is awful. I really don't know what I'm doing anymore besides not texting back until a few days and employing soft nexting. I realize I have had a wrong impression all my life about women. They're insane little emotional whores. That's it! The other day I approached a girl who was interested and went to get her #. She said she's the faithful type and my dumb ass sees that as a a dead end and say goodnight. I realized, walking away, she could have just been telling herself that because she was still talking to me and etc. It blows my mind how mentally retarded I am with girls. I'm amazed I ever fucked as much as I have (There was one teen I fucked over 300 times in college).

I want to get laid a lot. I don't care about bits. I want tits. I'm 24 I should be slaying right now and having happy, healthy sex with all kinds of women. I thought I was doing the right thing to get a good career and slaving in front of a computer all day I swear is a self-induced autism. Which really kills whatever game I am working on improving. I feel so fucked. I'm shooting in the dark. No other man in my family has slept with more than 2 women (most of them just 1 all their life). So what do I do? Keep being mentally retarded with game and keep slaving away hoping to make bank? Or do I stop chasing this programming bullshit and keep approaching women?

Like I said I'm lost. I've seen improvements but I'm not making any grounds these last several months. I feel like I'm actually taking steps backwards. I'm putting aside my pride to tell you I need help. I can read game all day and see how shit works theoretically. But living it and doing it, I have a hard time seeing it in action for myself. I don't know how the fuck I ever got laid. I really don't. I ignored girls and made myself happy by doing and living whatever I wanted. They came to me. Which is not good game.