I put that title for clicks but what do you guys think of this:

ive been fairly successful with women over my life (25) - couple of long terms which turned out to be like any other girl and a fair few hookups and flings along the way. I would classify myself as pretty rakish (see robert greene) when it comes to women and red pill ideas seem to be my norm. thus i have kind of overstepped some social boundaries (maybe feminist driven ones) in my time which has given me both success and trouble, and classification as a bad boy or sleaze depending on who you ask. In high school i was hooking up with the two hottest girls in the year at the one time. I have also gone through dry spells.

Up until recently this has been fine but my past accumulated indiscretions - which has included some drunken behavior with an acquaintances girlfriend - has caused some group scrutiny, and has led to some of my social group to exclude me from some social events. Now, i totally get this, I have created some drama and there are guys who just want to be nice with everyone and avoid this type of behaviour. But guys who I considered friends, but now know otherwise, have pretty much ostracized me because of it. Much of this could be blamed on alcohol - and has - but as parties involve alcohol, and I have been labelled as untrustworthy when drinking, I was not invited to the last party. Something I'm not worried or upset about, but kind of annoyed by as it reduces my capacity for fun and socialising.

My behaviour with women is pretty much exactly what is described as red pill behaviour and has always been so, I have never been the nice guy and have never been taken advantage of. I have at times been very successful with women and at others not so much. I have been called a player etc but I have not by any means always had hot girls on call. I would consider my results as maybe just above par (plus I don't live in a highly populated area). Its just that now my "immoral" actions (usually when drinking) has caused an affect on my life which I had no say over. I'm more regretful of this than the actual actions.

Deep down I think a lot of them a blue pill pussies who are cowering to social pressure to behave like good boys. I regret the results of my actions but not the actions themselves. Don't get me wrong, I still get along with a lot of my friends it's just I am now mistrusted by a lot in the group when women and alcohol involved. Thus am now missing out on some things cos I am the "bad guy".

I seem to have created this roguish, lone wolf figure for myself without intending to but maybe that's what I'm meant to be. I don't think I'm looking for advice I just wanted to share this and see what you think. I suppose I need to accept and move on. But it seems that high school really never ends.

(It's important to note that I grew up in a small town, so these things are concentrated. I do believe that my nature would not have got me into trouble if I had been in a big city. Also I don't plan to live here for much longer so the affects should be short term)