Background: Moved into a new country by myself for the very first time (18y/o) for university. As a result, I lost all my plates and can not hang out with very close friends anymore. At university, people are very different from my hometown and nobody tries to find "connections" with each other anymore. Instead they just party every night.

When I arrived at university the first few weeks were quite fun gaming girls and partying hard until I started feeling hollow inside. I got into a relationship for the very first time and applied all RP knowledge. However, I think my mindset is not fully developed in terms of relationships as I'm not sure how to deal with problems so I'm starting to feel jealous when she does certain things. Such as hanging out with a guy friend this Saturday.

Upon self-reflecting, I think getting into this relationship gave me company while I study (so I don't live alone). I also get to not get distracted and focus on my studies. However, I do feel a bit restrained when I socialise as I felt guilty semi-flirting with other girls.