I’ll start by saying, I wasn’t always awkward around women it kinda started to take effect after my last break up. When I realized things weren’t going the way I planned in high school. What a big idea, right? So I started to venture down the rabbit hole and I found myself a mess of trouble and anxiety, anger, just a real dark place. Since being aware of this crawling under my skin I’ve been able to trust myself and accept others. Knowing how hard it just be to live an adult life. I’ve kinda just been white knuckling it but I’m smiling and happy more often lately. A moment ago I got in a panic because a really attractive women at work who makes double my salary asked me out in front of some coworkers who weren’t really listening but could hear us talking. I’ve maybe had two conversations with this women in my life mostly professional so she came to my office like hey I’m just stopping by to see if you could come to this thing, blah blah, I went into a panic and basically could hear that anxiety talking back to me like “woah, buddy she’s a coworker don’t shit where you eat/ but she’s so hot don’t blow it” see what happened? I’m so fucking stressed out trying to keep myself from repeating the mistakes I made in prior relationships I haven’t been able to “Begin Again” I’m just scared if I get involved with another women and I have feelings for her it will end badly. What’s going on?