So I took the proverbial red pill and I have been lurking/studying up on sidebar material on the red pill reddit.

I'll keep this as short as I can but I also dont have a lot of people to talk to about this and I feel we are all brothers here so bear with me cause I kinda need to vent.

I'm 23 years old, just moved out of a bad situation in Texas to my hometown and place of birth in California. I live with my grandma and my two sisters. Without getting too personal basically my moms been dead for 11 years of cancer and my dad has basically been present in my life but never there if that makes sense and right now he is just running around mexico and the USA doing fuck if I know. I had moved to Texas when I was 14 with my dad and basically I am telling you this because all theses circumstances and me being so close with my mother but having her die created in me a oneitsis beta blue pill woman worshiping pathetic excuse of a man . Always putting girls on pedestals and revolving my life around finding the one that would just make everything right and worth living for and getting my heart fucked up after handing it out so many times.

Basically, fuck all that. I see the truth now and Im not here for those issues because personally most of those issues I have to work out myself. We all got our issues and we are the ones who decide whether we conquer or not. But I don't believe we can conquer them as betas but as Alphas which I now know to be the right and true mentality of a man.

My issue is that all my life I have lived under the blue pill beta lenses which is the reason why I've been unable to deal with these issues cause I was living and believing a lie. I can't go back and I don't want to go back to the way life used to be before I started actually seeing the truth behind the stuff I have been reading here. I am not here for what has been I am here for whats ahead.

Now I want to be Alpha. Where do I start? How? What do I need to do now? Fuck marriage, fuck woman and fuck what they been allowed to become because of our bullshit society and culture and fuck what I was because of the same society and culture. Fuck the roles they try to put upon us and fuck the role they have tried to make us men into. Fuck it all man.

To clarify I am not asking just to get pussy. I don't want to be a guy who just gets laid because anyone can do that.

I want to be an Alpha male. A man who takes control of his life and who is not defined by his circumstances but one who defines himself despite his circumstances. That's red pill philosophy right?

So where do I start? What can I start doing in my life to become Alpha? How did you do it? What are practical steps I can take TODAY? TOMORROW? THE REST OF THIS MONTH? YEAR?

I already know I need to take control of my fitness and eating habits. My sleep is getting in check due to the fact that I just started working here. I'll be making decent money and I have a whole year to wait before I go back to college because I have to become a Californian resident again.

What are practical steps I can take this year with a decent income for a 23 year old male who is living rent free to become fucking Alpha and to bring about real change in my life?

Finding a gym is no problem Ill get that honestly I am probably gonna go the crossfit route despite the controversy behind it.

I need practice with chicks from an Alpha mentality. Practice with my day game/night game. Increasing my SMV. I am not ugly and am handsome and attractive. Ectomorph body type. Naturally athletic and skinny. 5'10". I have abs as like a fat girl has big boobs but I need to start harnessing my potential. Girls have always called me cute, adorable, but never hot. I've always been the nice guy or the friend but the attractive beta girls usually sleep with due to my looks, pity, or because no Alphas are around. Fuck that.

How do I approach my education/work/future career from a red pill Alpha philosophy?

That's basically it. I'd vent more and go into more detail but I don't want to waste too much time and have a wall of text. I hope my questions aren't to vague and ask away anything you need to know. I hope this all wasn't too long I just need help cause I can't go back to a beta blue pill lifestyle. I'm gonna follow the white rabbit as deep as the rabbit hole goes.

If you read it all thanks for hearing me out I kinda just needed to vent too.

tl;dr 23 male. Moved back to SoCal hometown where I have been gone so long I can turn over a new leaf. Took red pill, can't go back. Rent free, working, have to wait a year before I go back to college. How do I practically start living out an Alpha lifestyle now in regards to fitness? Picking up woman? Figuring out a career/education path? Life in general? What did you do? Tips/advice/what do I need to do? What can I do today,tomorrow, this year?