I have a long term friendship with a girl I went out with a lot. I know her friends and family and they all know mine. But we mostly spend time on her accord, where she goes and with who ever she chooses. She’s never had a boyfriend. Nothing like that but couples have hung out with us briefly. So I like, a dumbass started to express to her that I would be interested in an exclusive relationship with her. While I was doing it an a very indirect way she sorta just started ghosting me. At one point she just looked at me. Holding eye contact with me as if to say it was chance to kiss her but I just waited for her to take the lead. This was years ago but we have been friends since we were babies. So we haven’t talked in two years. She hasn’t returned any of my messages and I’ve never gone out to pursue a girl like this. Some of my closest male friends say it’s her way of telling me to “bring it on” but my fear is doing it wrong. I want to just show up at her house with a kiss on the lips and just see how she responds.