Well apparently I’m not from there, though I spent most of my past years dreaming about starting life there. Even though to some here I’m living a relatively good life and making good money, it wasn’t enough for me, I wanted to pursue that American dream. Fast forward a couple of years, I meet someone online who happens to be from the states, a young and beautiful Latina who is willing without hesitation to help me move there and start a family and build her “empire” with me as she told me. I mean for someone who was on my level of desperation, it felt like hitting the jackpot. I couldn’t ask for anything better. Fast forward a year and half of a long distance relationship full of anxiety and being a doormat while spending 50k$ on the whole ordeal, my wife ended up cheating on me (and was probably cheating that whole time). I didn’t have solid proof. She called me at 4 am drunk and crying after she left her “friend’s who’s like her brother” house claiming that she had to hide there from a stalker who has been stalking her for 2 years and that I knew nothing of before. Even someone who is blind and deaf is willing to bet their whole money on that she was cheating. It hit me like truck and should have seen it coming have I not been so much in denial. I break things of. After 3 months, and a text from here and there, she said that she wants to be back with me while still denying that she ever cheated. And me, still having feelings for her and an unquenched thirst to try life in the land of the free I agree to go back but this time with some self respect. I demand that she no longer can go out 1 on 1 with guys, no longer hide the fact that she is married, no longer flirt back with guys who hit on her on social media etc. She delightfully agrees. Lo and behold, in a couple of weeks I spot a guy flirting and commenting on her instagram pics. What does she do in return? She likes his comments and goes and like his pics. So I get mad and explain to her that her actions are just encouraging him to come back for more. She ends up making her page private because iam being controlling and calls me insecure, and unsurprisingly that dude makes his page private also. So I make an account and follow that guy, to which he accepts, and to my amazement, I find pictures of them both all over each other in a bar and another one of them holding hands in her car. I grab my phone, sent her every curse word in the book, and asked her to send me the divorce papers. It’s been more than a month now and she hasn’t sent anything yet. I snooped in both their accounts and the flirty comments stopped, he or she even deleted his previous comments and he deleted the photos he had of both of them. So I guess he dropped her when he realized that all she wants is a guy to spend money on her, or realized that she’s just a slut.

I’m working abroad and was planning to file for divorce also when I take the next vacation back in my country. But then the whole idea of getting a shot to start life in the states hits me again. She’s gonna come back and ask me for forgiveness again sooner or later. I don’t know if it’s worth to keep trying. I guess most of you guys here are from the land of the free and have a realistic idea of how it is to live there, unlike my deluded vision that I get from movies, the internet etc. Is it worth all the effort? Is it worth pursuing and going through hell again with my so called wife?

TL;DR: Girl who was gonna help me move to the US cheated on me twice, should i keep trying at this just for the sake of experiencing life in the US? (sorry for bad english)