28M im immature for my age.

Thank you. Your reply is the best reply i have ever gotten in any of my posts on reddit. So thank you again. Yes i will lift and eat healthy. And im kind a addicted to porn, but i dont fap, i mastubrate till peak and stop when it comes to cum. Been like this for 3years now. Im really horny and have a high sex drive and im up for sex anytime of the day. But ever since i know im single. I have sabotaged all things that ever closed to a relationship. When i get a girl when i hear how their past lovers and how organized how matured how they took lead how they suprised her how they were good with financially etc makes me paranoid and when i know i can never be like them i eventually ruin relationship. Tbh even i know im not mature for my age. Both looks and mentally. Even a guy who is younger than 5-6 years dont look up to me or respect me. I dont have that big wide look of a someone elder someone wise etc. Even by looks im so young and naive. So they dont respect me as an elder or they simply dont care and treat me as one of them. Im tired of even in public situations get treated by young dudes disrespectful toward me as i have no such mature big scary vibe. Im always a soft innocent meek guy who is timid and submissive to anyone. No any girl ever took me as a leader. They never afraid or respected me as they respected or fear of their exes. I feel like im an empty shell.even in workplace even people younger than me are having their backbone straight and work without getting bendover to anyone or taking shit from anyone. But everyone messes me diss me treat me bad as they know im so soft and a immature. No one can tell me im 28 by my looks or behaviour and just because they treat me like a young unimpressive guy now i act like a one also. I feel like i stay same while every generation is passing me. To tell you my dad is also same. He is soo naive soo immature soo childish even at age 65 he is like a child. Submissive to anyone. My mom takes the lead and runs the family while my dad is a whimp. Its so pathetic seeing this but all these i had no idea who a man is. But after red pill of dating and self improvement it reeks me how my dad acts. But even i f iknow these theories im still immature im still carefree without a seriousness in life. I think i have this Peter Pan syndrome but i dont know how to over come it. I just need to be feel respected to my age and act like my same age colleagues. Otherwise every year i fall behind after every young guy and they just pass me over. Ifeel like i simply lack masculine traits as my father never had any. But i dont know at age 28 i dont know how to turn all these around as im so sad about being single alone and have no social life. I got soo many things to figure on top of this which a person my age should have