I’ve been with my LTR for two years. She is the first girl I’ve ever felt truly loved by, and quite literally bends over backwards for me. Always willing to do anything to keep me satisfied in bed, always willing to show her loyalty, even spending resources on me. I know she isn’t love bombing me, because her attitude has remained consistent for the entirety of the relationship. There’s just one caveat… Her n-count is 20 at 23. I know the typical rule is to multiply by 3, but I’m fairly sure 20-25 is close to accurate as I’ve gotten 3 different numbers from her, and she finally admitted to this number after a few drinks (yes I know I you’re not supposed to ask). Most of her lays were after a breakup, she sort of just flew off the rails for 1 year and then they tapered off just before she met me.
I fucking KNOW that typical red-pill ideology says to run, run, run… But I’m hoping a couple of the OG’s can put aside the black and white rules and chime in here because EVEN fucking plates was not as fulfilling as being with this girl. None of my prior relationships match up to the feeling of being with her, and I’ve been with significantly lower n-count woman before. Don’t get me wrong, I can easily replace her, because I’m young and have a higher-than-average SMV due to my income & looks, but I simply don’t have the desire due to getting everything I want from her. I know without a shadow of doubt, based on her actions, that she views me as her best option. She completely and utterly adores the floor I walk on, and I’ve never experienced that in my life. I feel like the epitome of an alpha around her - a fucking king. This makes me contemplate marrying her if things continue to go well in the long term.
So is it a big deal if I continue to date this girl long term? And if she shows good behavior, possibly go further? Or would I be shooting myself in the foot?
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Bro, it’s the absolute biggest mindfuck I’ve ever experienced. I quite literally often think to myself- “I hope she cheats on me”. I don’t have any sort of cuck fetish or anything, it’s quite the opposite. It’s because if she reveals her true ways now, I know there was never any potential to begin with. But she hasn’t. She has stuck around through the ups and downs, even when surrounded by Chads in a college environment, who I know good and well have a higher SMV than me. Even through the multiple times I’ve broke frame.
But if I date this girl for the next, say, 10 years, and everything is peach perfect, I know for a fact I will forever live with regret if I leave her purely over her n-count. I’ll always be thinking what we could have been.
What would you do? Honestly?
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Yeah man, it really does seem to be my subconscious cutting through. I’m just at a stage where the thought of me leaving and her getting piped out by other guys makes me cringe.
I guess the only thing I can do is stick around until the inevitable branch swing happens or she decides to get some strange. If the general belief about sluts is true, it’ll come out eventually. I’ve known virgins that cheat repeatedly with no remorse, and sluts that remain fiercely loyal but I can’t base my situation on the anomaly. Hopefully time will tell.
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She’s fucking someone else.
I appreciate your advice man.
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I’ve been called paranoid on here before. And admittedly, I often am. It’s just an eerie, unsettling gut feeling.
Today, I called her up. I noticed she was at a CVS up the street from her college dorm (she doesn’t have a car). Call it whatever you want, but I felt inclined to ring her. She answers, but the conversation was… Short. Almost as if she knew I was suspecting something. She said she was picking up hair dye CVS (ended up texting her after and she sent me a pic of what she got). The whole convo lasted 2 minutes.
Then, her location doesn’t update for exactly 1 hour. She didn’t respond to my text asking her what color dye she got for that 1 hour - it was as if she fell off the face of the earth.
After the hour passes (when she is back in her dorm), location services magically update again. For the record, we track each other. I suspect she knew I was onto something, and toggled it off manually. I tried to spice up some sexually charged text, and she was just very short with me. Not used to that from her.
Something is telling me she was doing something she wasn’t supposed to be for that 1 hour. I can’t lay my finger on it - just doesn’t feel right.
I could get into the technicals all day, but all in all, I don’t give a shit. I’m going to hate fuck her the next time I see her, then internally demote her to plate. I’m going to make sure she remembers this fuck, because I genuinely have disdain for her at this point. I think somehow she has manipulated me.
I could be crazy, or my intuition could be correct. All I know, is I’m not going to mentally consider her my girlfriend anymore. If I confront her on this and it turns out she was cheating, she’ll lie. If I don’t mention anything, this will eat at me. It’s a lose lose situation and I’m tired of drinking every night I’m not with her. I’m tired of wondering what she’s doing when she’s with her girlfriends at these bars into ungodly hours (this isn’t an everyday thing, but it’s usually at least once per week). At this point I just want to embrace my inner alpha and treat her like the cum dumpster she is.
I’m also going to a bar alone tonight, and I’m sure you can guess what my intentions are.
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I’ll never truly know. And I fucking hate this man.
I hate every bit of it. Because either way, it lands me in the same place. Drinking alone, in this shitty bar, wondering what things could have been.
Honestly internet stranger, I can’t recall another time I felt this fucking empty.
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