I missed my only fucking chance to become independent from my family this year

Alright I have an unhealthy toxic type relationship(bpd? Look I’m no profressional I’m not qualified to say anyone have anything but its what I have always suspected) with my sister and I enable her too(I’m not a fucking grown man yet Im not emotionally mature enough or just not experienced enough to deal with her, I can’t nurture her when she is throwing a tantrum Im 18 she 27, she always try to break my frame and shit), my sister does very good things(paid my tutition) for me but she is to the extreme, look I know thats good but I don’t fucking care call me spoiled thats gaslighting because you GOD DAMN IT. I cant even fuckin type rn tbh. I want to become free from her and I miss my chances to become independent. This post reads like a sperg out cuz I constantly think I’m going to get insulted or gaslighted by anyone. Back to the point, here is the cycle between me and my sister: She wants my attention I ignore, she does good thing for me then begs for affection/attention in the return I ignore, she talks like I will live with her forever saying shit like “Where should we live together in 5 years) but I want to become independent from my family (Ik it boils down to “just do it then f4g”) Anyway total bpd behavior and I enable her I need to get out of here. Or maybe its just classic female nature and I couldnt see it because Im not experienced yet).

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