Hi, im a 20f black junior in college. I feel like I come here every 2 months.

I started my level up journey in January. This mostly consisted of physical change like working out to lose weight and get a nicer body in general and doing make, clothes, etc. I’m also seeing a therapist to help with my self esteem and to gain some confidence. My problem has always been that I compare myself too much and I feel like FDS and FLUS have helped but I feel like almost every month I go back to being miserable and comparing again.

Im 20 years olds. Why are there 18 who haven’t had to go on a level up journey to find confidence and learn to love themselves? Why are there ppl younger than me who can find boyfriends and friends with no effort while I am doing all that I can to find companionship? Why are there college freshman who are so much more confidence than I can ever dream of being? Why are there younger girls out there who have lost their virginity but I am still struggling to even get a guy to say hi to me?

I know that the comments are telling me that I have to validate myself but thats all I’ve been doing. Even before I started FDS. Affirmations, talking to myself in the mirror. I pray, I talk to God. I don’t know whats going on. Why isn’t any of this working? I just want to know why I’m not getting the results I want.

I know in still young and only a couple months into my leveling up but why are there girls out there who have already achieved all I want without FDS and also while being younger than me.

Thank you for reading.