I humbly ask all the wise people in this sub for advice, and maybe some emotional support if you feel like it :)

This year has been tough. Basically, my best friend since high school (I'm 26 now) broke up with me over text with no explanation in January 2019, and it absolutely broke me (exponentially more painful than any boyfriend breakup). This wasn't drifting apart. We were talking almost every day, hanging out often and even took trips together. I live with my fiance and was a hermit until July-ish to recover from the pain.

That was when I decided to try to make new friends in my current city, since I have zero. Now, I used to be pretty good at making friends and have a few long-distance friends. But ever since this friend breakup, I can't make friends for the life of me. I must be sending off a weird or desperate vibe. I met a small handful of new women in the city and one ghosted me after hanging out a few times. Two of them seem to only have me around for the acts of service I provide. They don't seem to respect me. Sometimes they don't respond to my msgs and I feel like if I didn't initiate, they never would. I used a couple of friendship apps. It's not going well.

Anyway, I see the common denominator is me. My partner says it's because I'm too nice. I don't know, it's weird because I've never had this problem before! I thought I was healed in July, but it's becoming clear that I'm not.

So how do I do nun mode, but for friends? It's very confusing because part of nun mode is usually strengthening platonic relationships. How can I avoid potentially emotionally overloading my fiance from not having friends? What specific things should I focus on during this nun mode? How long should it be and should I even do it? Finally, can you relate to taking a nun mode for friends or just a period of friendlessness? I'd love to hear your experiences! Thank you!