Following one of the tenets of self improvement in MRP/TRP, I enrolled in a local BJJ school, great reviews and apparently respected instructors and legit. Everybody is friendly and welcoming, so far so good after warm ups and stretches, the instructors proceeds to explain one or two moves that I awkwardly practice with another fellow that had to guide me every simple step even how to guard and squat.

Then is when it gets good; Grappling/sparring time Only armed with the knowledge of how to tap, my backside was whoop in more ways that I care to remember, I resisted the best I could but only to delay the tap for a mere seconds more, I believe the lower belt I faced was a blue. I am no wimp, every time they asked me if I wanted to go at it again I merrily complied with similar results oblivious to what I was doing other than wriggling my way out of chokes and grabs.

Is this it? How being meat to the grinder of guys obviously skilled in this helps me other than teaching me to be humble Is there any structure or is just random ?

I am willing to stick around but I need some hope that it gets better.