Been married for over 20years with three kids. I was a complete Blue Pill chump. I was raised by a single mother who married 3 times. Watching my mother have all these emotional breakdowns because of men I swore I would always be a loving and faithful partner to my wife. Get married in my early 20's and start having kids. Typical story - sex starts dropping off after the kids are born. Sex averages about twice a month. Intiate often but always get shot down. Excuses are always something to do with the kids or work. Get tired of being shot down so I just start intiating when I know it can happen. Flash forward 25 years later. Kids are basically all grown up. I am almost 50 years old and realize I have put aside all my desires for the sake of the marriage and family. Try to amp up the sexual chemistry with my wife and realize she couldn't care less. So I start doing exactly the wrong thing. I start buying her flowers. I rub her feet every night. Choreplay. I am always considering her feelings. Slowly over time she starts becoming a little more nasty and bitchy so what do I do? I try harder. It got to the point where I was completely in her frame. I was walking on eggshells during every conversation hoping I wouldn't upset her. Fucking pussy. Sex becomes awful. She can't wait till it's over. I go online to figure out what is going on. Find red pill and holy shit is this for real? Start devouring the materials and my eyes are opened. Started going to the gym about year and a half ago. Slowly started implementing what I learned and started to see some improvements. Sex is not near where it should be but she definitely has improved her attitude towards me considerably. No more snide insults or yelling. She will shit test me once or twice a day and literally I just act like I didn't hear it and then minutes later she acts like she never said it. Jesus, I wish I learned that one decades ago. I want to start using what I have learned to ramp up our sex life but I just don't know. I am attracted to her but at the same time I am turned off by her. All those times she was just so nasty and mean to me while I was just pouring my heart out to her has made me ambivalent at best. I just don't know. It seems like it's almost too much trouble. Like I know the juice isn't going to be worth the squeeze. I just don't know.