I thought I swallowed the pill but I can't escape this cycle of depression. 23 years old, best shape of my life, in school to make a 6 figure salary, spinning 3 plates with a good group of friends, but I still go through phases of feeling depressed.

Basically its right after sex with a plate and I just feel like "what the fuck is the point of this"

I guess you could say the only thing that I am missing is a LTR.

The problem is that I know how these girls aren't loyal and the thought of how easy they can get guys makes me feel sick and NOT want an LTR because my fantasy is unrealistic. But then deep down I want something that doesn't exist: a unicorn.