Went to a party after not sleeping for 30 hours, I drank way too much. Slept for like an hour at the party house before leaving in the morning. But before I left Chad and I smoked a blunt. I had like 6 good hits, and my tolerance is low. The hangover mixed with the sleep deprivation turned the weed schizophrenia up to 10.

On my way home I started acting super sweet over text with my family and friends because the weed made me feel like I'm a bad person and that I need to show my appreciation more often. Acted sweet to the point that some of my siblings and friends asked if its really me on the phone.

So sweet I fucking told my best plate that moved city that I miss her and that I just want to hug her right now.

Should I just go no contact and hope that if she's in town she'll pop up? Telling her that it was just the weed talking will definitely seem beta.

I've done bucket loads of lsd and never experienced the levels of anxiety those 6 hits put in me.